You want to be dressed in poetry, but imagery doesn't fit.

This is the creation that the nine hours I spent in PHX resulted in:

flowering - deflowered?
not positive. not negative.
pushing petals, pushing me.
creatively writing a life.
perfect illusions, pathetic allusions.
not even trying, barely caring.
emotions flickering across the surface,
not registering on the Richter scal.
who am I kidding?
lies spread fast when you're the only one who believes.
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11:09 AM

pumpkin problems.
I'm no cinderella.
fairytale princes don't even look.
best friend to the princess.
overlooked by all
there are perks to this job
I'm a wallflower
pretty enough to be forgotten
"not memorable"
blank, allowed to be nothing.
more or less.
power - less.
pumpkin?

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why can't i understand?
why won't you let me in?
who are you to hurt me so?
why do i trust you even though
i know you are bad for me?
i'm so selfish. pathetic.
embarrassing. fat.
it only takes one step.
could i be free?
would you let me?
do you know you hold the keys?
scratch that.
you've got the whole damn shebang.
the glint of your hair is a warning
that not a soul can read.
i'm not the only one in hiding.

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i can't get off the ground
barely lift my head
no strength or hope
pained and young
a tortured soul
a wish, a spark,
a glint in your hair
crushed, burnt,
head spinning wildly
out of control again
no clue, no common sense
just little old me
tall, young me really
so full of cliche and allusion
not even speaking words of my own

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Cute boy @ PHX ... after seven hours.

hey look!
your hair glints just like his.
your smile is crooked and cute.
you remind me of neil patrick harris.
how cool.
but i'm shy and quiet.
you're on your laptop, again.
confusion never looked so good.
i want to text you little =]'s
or give you a hug,
'cause i'm tired and stressed.
home would be nice.
i miss my boys,
and your smile is just right.
i give good hugs, i promise.
my head hurts. again.
airports give me migraines.
i see you looking at me,
out of the corner of your eye.
are you writing about me too?
your tie makes you look good.
blue stripes that match your eyes.
those eyes... yum.
but your hair glints just like his
so i can't.
i'm running away now.

Oh, how I meant to tease him. Oh, how I meant no harm.

One would think that I would have better luck with airports, after 18 years of flying standby. Nope. I spent a wonderful NINE HOURS stuck in Phoenix Sky Harbor International Airport yesterday, with a total of four dollars in my wallet and no access to an ATM because the only ATM in the airport is outside of security. Wonderful.
The trip to Arizona, however, was quite fun. I flew out Monday morning to see my best friend Melanie graduate high school. =] I got to see a lot of her family that I hadn't seen since I "was this tall". The height that each person gestured to was about the same, surprisingly. I hung out with Mel and her cousin Nick, mostly.

Side Note: I'm watching Benny & Joon right now, and Johnny Depp is ADORABLE. ^-^ I heart this movie, and I'm recognizing places! I'm definitely making grilled cheese with my iron next year. teehee.

We took a trip to the Grand Canyon, which was just as breathtaking as the first time I saw it with Mel when we were like twelve. I took lots of pictures - okay, I took forty while I was there - and although none of them do it justice, I'll probably include a few here, and there will definitely be an album on Facebook. We walked all over the place, and saw creepy gargantuan beetles, and heard weird clicking noises from every direction. We even got Mel to walk out to the edge and look over. It's a long way down!

I just loved my little mini-vacation, and now its on to the epic job search '09! If any of you hear of an opening, please let me know!

Everyone wants to know true love is true...

So I've apparently just failed at upkeep with this blog. =] It's almost finals week! I can't believe how fast freshman year has gone by.

I'm an ASM in Broadway Unbound this week, which means today and tomorrow and completely devoted to the theatre (except for that 7 page paper for Life/Teachings). I'm way too excited about spending 4-10pm in the theatre. I also applied to be House Manager next year! JTL really likes me, as does Jenn and Brooke. I'm slowly breaking into the department!

I miss you all so much. I picked up my Finals Survival Kit today - though it might turn into a theatre survival kit since I don't get to eat dinner tonight or tomorrow - and the notes were soooooo cute. Thanks guys!

I'm writing my seven page paper right now - which is technically a really long letter, but hey - about Jesus as a life guide! I pulled eight books off my shelf and had most of my necessary sources. =] I'm quite excited to write this letter, imaginary circumstances and all.

I just got back from rehearsal. 4-10:30. Gah. I'm dying. The headset that I wear as ASM gave me a headache. Tomorrow will go much smoother, though. I also learned how to switch gels! I could be a techie! Teehee.

Alright, I'm going to go finish my paper now. Toodleoo!